Before I talk of my chastity journey, I must explain a little bit about myself.
I am a 66 years old, hetero male, very submissive, shy and screwed up person. When I was 13, while playing cops and robbers, I found myself tied to a chair, and teased by a neighbourhood girl I had a crush on, and that’s when I discovered climax. Now since that moment, in my mind, sex has somehow been associated in some form or other, with being restrained somehow, by a sexy woman. I always felt inferior to women and am a full believer in Female Supremacy.
I dared opening about this only once, to my wife, and she reacted badly. So, I tried for all those years to repress this feeling and grow past it. In my professional and personal life, I’ve had to constantly fake being assertive, and became very good at it. Having a stressful job, and suffering a divorce, I ended up in depression twice.Now I must be honest, I never had a big sex drive, but these 2 bouts of depression, combined with consumption of anti-depressants, brought it down to nothing.
At one-point, self-bondage stopped being useful to me, and I began looking for a way to be restrained for a long time, without having to tell anyone. That is when I began experimenting with chastity. 10 years later, and dozens of expensive Chastity devices later, I realized that I couldn’t do it alone. I was scammed over the last year by several pseudo mistresses, so I was a bit reluctant when Mistress Star responded to me on Fetlife, offered me to visit her website and join her Discord server. Sensing that this seemed more professional, I decided to sign in as a chastity Slave, especially when we started to discuss my needs, my fantasies, and what chastity is for her. She quickly learned to push my buttons in a way that I could not even fathom before.
Mistress Star took all the time needed to learn my story and my reasons, she explained how strict and demanding she would be, and was so nice to me that it was hard to imagine. That is until the moment the padlock clicked on my chastity cage. She immediately started to dominate me, and within just a few moments, I was hooked and in full submissive mode. A few short minutes after we hung up on the conversation, a new feeling engulfed me, for the first time since that faithful day when I was 13, I had lost control to a powerful woman, and there was no turning back. Being in chastity is not comfortable, it pinches, it squeezes at the wrong time, it hurts when you get hard – Wait a minute, I have not gotten hard in a few years, what is happening to me? – Sure, and yet, there’s not a thing I can do about it. That means that about 100 times a day, I feel a pinch, a squeeze, or I pull a pubic hair, and that reminds me that Mistress owns me. Through that dammed cage, she owns every moment of my days, whether it is convenient or not. Full time chastity often interferes with real life events, where I would previously have removed the device, but it is no longer my decision, that decision now belongs to Mistress Star.
Mistress Star is indeed strict and demanding, her tasks serve to humiliate and frustrate us, and nothing she does is left to chance. Her admin tasks force us to chat on the Discord server, and her rules make every interaction so scary that I constantly am feeling like I’m seconds away from her punishment. I did manage to get a few, and deserved them, but still, they serve to remind me of who is in charge, and that I am just a slave, who needs to be always, up to her high standards. Before every intervention on the server, I now ask myself what would be better for Mistress Star, who she would want me to help, what event should I promote, and I realize that even if it earns me a punishment, if it’s good for her reputation, then it is all worth it. Pleasing her is more important than anything.
I have now been in chastity for over a month and realize that chastity isn’t really chastity until you want to be unlocked but cannot. I have resorted to begging, but I think she enjoys my begging, and it won’t change her mind. The physical chastity is what I thought it was all about, but little did I know. Mistress Star is messing with my mind and playing me like a puppet. The mental aspects of her domination are far more effective than any chastity device will be. It has become so strong in my case that I will gladly accept punishments, just to hear her laugh and make her happy.
As harsh and sadistic as she can be, I always feel that everything she does to me is to make the person behind the slave grow, and that is her magic. She is the real thing, there is no way she is pretending. I have no doubt that I found the perfect mistress for me, and while I feel stupid for signing up for 3 months, at the same time, I dread the day when it will be over.
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